This time alone lead me to think about the changes this infection has made in my life. I was a very social person, who was the party planner. I would be open to any event. Now I always have to check if events are wheelchair accessible. Then I have to know where the nearest wheelchair accessible bathroom is located. By this time the fun is just about taken out of the event. If I go, the amount of participation is limited to how much I can do from the wheelchair. Think about meeting friends for a drink at a bar. The view from a wheelchair at a bar is quite blank. Sure cannot meet people across the bar.
Everyday I do figure out new ways to participate in social events but I also know my life will never be the same. Some friends never call anymore. I call them but they seem to be busy with other friends. They moved on while I have been dealing with the infection or the things we did in the past are not things I am able to do today.
The saddest thing that happened was that I was having my knee replaced because I wanted to be able to go on long walks without pain. I know our plan is not always God's plan but He has really given me a interesting new plan. I am not unhappy with my new life but it is sure different. My goals are very different.
If anyone else feels lose due to a health issue, I would love to hear about it and how you are coping with the changes in your life.